The Constant Ramblings Of A Boy.

When you’re alone, do you think of me?
And my diamond rings thrown out to sea
And when you love, do you love for me?
Like harmony, a never ending dream
Oh well, oh well
I still hope for the best
Say goodbye and send me off with a kiss farewell
And I promise I’ll be just as strong as I can be

there is a tear in time line of us

love seems gone left empty like the glasses on our beach

how much longer can this lovers facade last

shattering the illusion of all i ever was

heart beats racing, its no longer my fingers tracing forever on your back

i am not in the smile you wear, or that love filled stare now bare

i am gone from you like the leaves of autumn

cold winds take me away, we had our year

a year to play and fall, but now is the time to see

will i fade away or will i stay

forever and today

what do our hearts really say

Remember words scrawled out on pages

in bright colours of ink, oh boy do you think your unique

remember skin on skin hidden quietly beneath sheets

sprawling about two hearts find their synch

remember singing along to all our songs thinking this is it

forever is found the shortest straw left undrawn

Remember perfect and how we believed we had found it

the chalk lines now draw two young lovers left on the ground

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Dear Girl,

I hope this finds you well, I am not well. I have been thinking and then over thinking and rethinking even that. I hate what you did, I hate that you lied about it too. I hate so much of it I got scared that I might hate you. I hate what you did. I wanted to give you consequence so you know it’s wrong. I am not your parent though, I am your boyfriend so I will employ reason in this letter, perhaps my last thing I write for you I just don’t know. You made a mistake, learn from it you said I am not your parent when I told you that the first time. You’re right I’m not, I am your boyfriend the one you hurt, whose trust you broke in two ways. Learn from this, please. You made the reasoning when I said I am ironclad on my stance that would be throwing my future away, maybe so but if your future worth throwing away by doing what you did. Is the future worth it? Think on that because I can’t do this again. I don’t want to. I wanted to be different than the others, I should have listened when you told me I wasn’t, I thought what we had was unique again I should have listened to you when you told me it isn’t.

I don’t know what to think now, I just know you need to do something about this I am not sure what. Say or do something that makes me believe again, proves that you want this to work. That we can go back to where we were. That you won’t do this again. I want to believe again, I want to be able to look at our pictures and feel something, to read the words I have written and be certain I mean them all. I want to believe you have more reasons for your certainty than just because I was. I am shaken by this more than I can show. I don’t even want to talk it aloud. Was it worth it? If it happens again, is it worth it? Throwing this away that is what you would be doing. Throwing this away because of some moment. You are a grown up and very capable of controlling your actions. I feel preachy and I don’t like that, I just don’t know what to do. I want to believe again, but I am scared this will just happen again I will look even stupider than I do now.

Please don’t ever do that again.

M.

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